Love.

Can love be a weakness?

Sometimes I wonder if I am weak, or if I just love too much. Is it a problem to let people in whenever it's convenient for them? I don't think so... but that's my skewed thinking talking.

Love is such a powerful emotion.

It makes me want to do good at all times.

It makes me want to be a better person.

It makes me want to bring joy into the world.

Sometimes there doesn't need to be an explanation for things...

just be a good person,

love who you want to love,

and have fun!

:)

Food.

Eating is such a social event. I ate 3 times today when I didn't want to... just to socialize and be with people. Somedays I say to myself, "Aw, screw it. I have already broken the 2000 calorie limit," and go crazy. I hate those days.

Why?

Why?

Why?

I know we need this stuff to survive, but not that much! Why does food have to be the source of which makes us gain or lose weight, or feel healthy or sick?

Sometimes you just got to say no. No I do not want that dessert that I desire because I am not hungry. Because guess what? In 20 seconds, I won't taste it anymore.

But sometimes, you just can't resist.

November 28th.

The day is here! It is the day of birth of Kami Rosen. Kami is the greatest! :) We always tease that her birthday is the pits. Before I knew her very well, I wrote in my journal "Today was Kami's birthday! I felt bad that it wasn't super fun.." But over the years, I have realized that the timing of your birthday doesn't matter because the same amount of people are still thinking about you. Where ever all her friends may be, they are thinking of her! This year I will not let the words go down in my journal that her birthday was not fun. Sometimes on your birthday all you need is the love of your family and the support and happiness brought from your friends.

This is my support for Kami...

I love Kami because she:

1. Truly loves and cares about people SO much. I can feel her love for me and I know she is there for me at all times.

2. Is trustworthy! Borrowed money? I know I'll get it back ;) Lies? Kami doesn't need lies. She likes the bluntly honest truth.

Regarding 90210: "WHY DO THEY LIE ALL THE TIME??? When are they going to realize that lying never works?!!?!? TELL THE TRUTH."

P.S. I love when we sit for a half an hour straight at times talking about TV shows as if they were our own lives :)

3. Tells me where to go in the car when I'm stressing out and am lost! Kami: "Ash, you just follow the purple line!!!"

4. Makes me laugh... SO HARD. Sometimes Kami gets in a very loud, some might say obnoxious, laugh, but that very same laugh can turn my frown upside down!

5. "Did you just say habitual? That's the thing you put in the newspaper for dead people."

" No Kami, that's an obituary."

Need I say more? :)

6. Shares a love for fashion with me. We can go up to Urban Outfitters and spend ALL DAY there. It is so much fun!

"Kami, I think I have a problem."
"I'll just say it... I KNOW I have a problem."

7. Tolerates my speedy, loud, sometimes not understandable talking. I talk a lot. And Kami is a great listener! When I go to her with a problem, she usually has something in her life that she can relate it to, and it helps a lot.

8. Is always up for something spontaneous! Bus rides on the UTA at 10 p.m... WHY NOT?

Hike the Y with flip-flops on and scale the mountain... WHY NOT?

Drive to Salt Lake for the day, neglect all forms of homework, and go shopping... WHY NOT? Go to the local Zurcher's, buy mustaches and bald caps, and have a photo-shoot... and later make them into magnets... WHY NOT?

Drive to Draper without a plan whatsoever and find things to do with our new friends... WHY NOT?

Have a mohawk for a night strictly because she just wanted to... WHY NOT?

Bored one night, so paint ourselves black and make a music video... WHY NOT?

And there are SO many more.

9. Shares my love of food and dessert. I love that Kami and I can go to just about any restaurant in Provo and know what meal we are getting to share. I think I made her fall in love with dessert TOO much... my bad... I didn't mean to put my problems upon her. Loving dessert TOO much to the extent of that is all you eat is DEFINITELY a problem.

10. Has a strong testimony! I love being around people that make me want to be better. Kami is one of those people! She is wholesome, loving, and on the straight and narrow path! I will never forget our week at EFY, summer before senior year. That testimony meeting is ingrained in my mind forever and always.

I LOVE YOU K!

Happy Day of Birth :)

Coin Laundry.

Do you have a dollar?

Do you have a dollar for me?

Maybe just an hour or two and a pot of tea...

Can I be the girl that you met?

Can I be the girl that you met?

Can I be the girl that you met in the coin laundry?

PLEASE.

Who has time for me?

I want to be the girl that you met in the coin laundry.

Happiness.

With all the blog posts I have read today, I had to post one up of my own. Today brought me more simple joy than any other day of this school year, I think. I cried laughing THREE times today. THREE! That's a lot, being the fact that all three times were spread out by hours and not in the same conversation or setting. I love when I cannot breathe because of my laughter. I love when I am not just crying, but bawling because of my laughter. I love when I am SURPRISED that I did not pee my pants because of my laughter. This day could not have been possible without my trusty cellular device and my best friend :) I love the little moments of happiness when there seems to be not a care in the world... My mommy pleasantly surprised me today. Something makes me happy, I laugh. Seeing me laugh, makes my mommy happy. I truly believe that happiness is a chain reaction. Happiness makes the world go 'round.

Blood ;)

Family.

Thanksgiving is a family day, and in this year's case, thanks to Tyler and Nicole, a memorable day! This afternoon I, along with my whole family and Nicole's whole family, got to witness my brother, Tyler, propose to Nicole Gibson! She was bawling before she even walked in the door! So cute. I am excited for the two of them, and the new addition to the Richards clan. Thanks to Erica's comedic acts, the pre-recorded wedding music cued at the perfect time to get a good laugh out of the crowd. Welcome to the family Nicole! I love my brother and new sister :)

Fun Times.

Fun times. I had the best weekend!

I have a group of girlfriends that knows me better than I know myself. We spent a weekend in a Marriott Hotel in Park City all alone. I love them so much. Every time we get together, we spill our lives to each other and get closer and closer. I loved being updated on all their lives and spending time together. We are closer than any group of girls. I would be there for any of them at any time of need. S4L.

Yesterday, Monday, I neglected school and ditched because we didn't get back from Park City until 2. I watched 2 movies and loved every second of sitting there without a care in the world.

Sometimes I smile.

People make me smile.

College Tests.

College tests are not the easiest tests I have ever encountered, that's for sure. Today I defied the norm and got a 96% on my second Book of Mormon test! My joy is shown by the constant grin on my face. I am a happy student today :)

Facebook.

Just when I thought Facebook was bound to have a downfall, it has become more prevalent in my life. Facebook can't be on top forever... Don't we need a new social network, one that's better, faster, cooler? I mean that's how America does it, right? Why is it that right when I open up my GoogleChrome my finger slides across my laptop mouse and taps on the Facebook tab? I am on Facebook even more than I was last year. There is one major change in my life, I am now in college. Is it that I am tired of studying and Facebook is my outlet, or that I feel the need to keep people close because I don't see them everyday as I used to? Sometimes Facebook keeps me up for an hour later than I should be... Someone is chatting with me, someone put up new pictures, I tell myself I have to invite someone to a certain event RIGHT THEN. But then I tell myself, "I am not tired, so I would be up for the same amount of time regardless what I was doing." And there ya have it, another justification. Facebook users are full of justifications. Maybe we need to sit back and admit it. Just say it.

I AM ADDICTED TO FACEBOOK.

Secrets.

"Who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul"

Sometimes secrets aren't something you are keeping to yourself because NO ONE can find out because it will hurt someone or make yourself look bad... Sometimes they are things you simply refrain from telling anyone because you think it's personal or not needed to say. But in reality, they DO need to be said. It makes all the difference. Secrets aren't healthy. Sometimes revealing secrets is the answer to a problem.
I wish everyone had integrity and wanted to be the best they can be. Why is it that some people say one thing and do another? Maybe it's because it is a habit, or maybe it is because they just don't want to change. I hate when people cause me to feel disappointment... and today I was disappointed.

Lazy.

Some days are just lazy days. Those days when homework seems impossible and the desire to do absolutely nothing dominates your body and mind. That is what happened to Paco and I. As a result came my new favorite picture...